I think of the rainbow babes like this... the rainbow after the storm of sorrow. We are suffering through the storm of sorrow when the universe lets up on the storm and we get a reprise in our sorrow, there is a RAINBOW. They do not "undo" or erase the storm they just make the enduring the storm a little more hopeful. Chris~ Mommy to ^Lucy^ & Danger

Friday, October 30, 2009

31 wks

31 weeks tomorrow :D Wow.. that means in 6 weeks or less our baby girl will be in our arms. I am feeling really good and different about this pregnancy, I cant explain it exactly. I guess I really am starting to feel like the shots are working and that things will be different this time. BUT then my mind starts to wonder and I realize that 6 wks is still an eternity when you have had 2 losses. It doesn't help that we lost Emma at 31 wks. That thought defiantly keeps creeping in, but then I remind myself that Amelia is already a good pound or more than her sister at this point gestationally. I also try to focus on the fact that Amelia is very active and even has the hiccups at this very moment. I keep reminding myself things are different this time. But I am still scared. Thank goodness for weekly appointments and my wonderful awesome team of 4 high risk Dr's that calm my fears constantly. I have to continue to have faith and believe that we will bring this rainbow home. So I will keep moving forward, getting her room ready and counting down the days till we meet her and at the same time be grateful for every moment I get with her.

Here are a few pregnancy shots my mom took of me last week. Its something I meant to do with the other two and never did, so I am making sure we take lots this time. Enjoy :D






10 comments:

JenJen said...

You look so cute!

We're in the homestretch sister!

Misty said...

Cute pics Amanda, I know what you mean about feeling different this time. I lost my first son at 37 weeks in May 2008 and 3 months later got pregnant with his little brother and that second pregnancy felt very different. I kept saying (to myself) this time it feels like this one is going to be ok and he is going to make it here. Keep those positive thoughts flowing girl and continue to pray. ((hugs))

momof2in1year said...

Manda:

I gotta say again how much I LOVE the pic of you sitting and looking down-- you current f/b profile. I is so amazing. The others are great. This one is happening-- I just know it. I wish you could relax and enjoy the rest! Maybe getting past the 31 weeks will help.

So happy for you!

Just Breathe said...

Beautiful pictures. Can't wait to see her!

Beth said...

you're making it! im proud of you for being positive. i bet the 31 week mark is very hard because of precious emma. but you are very inspiring. and you look STUNNING in the blue. what a great color against your blonde hair.

love to you.

Jodi said...

Praying for you every day, Manda! You look beautiful!!!

Emily said...

You look beautiful! Hang in there I know it's soooooo hard especially as you near the end!

Travelwahine said...

I know how you feel. It sounds like you are in great hands. I'm glad her weight is good.

I'll be praying for a peaceful journey until you haved your sweet baby girl in your arms.

Beautiful pics!

Penelope said...

You are absolutely glowing :) I'll pray for your little one tonight, that the next seven weeks go by well and she is delivered in perfect health.

AKD said...

You're just so adorable!