I think of the rainbow babes like this... the rainbow after the storm of sorrow. We are suffering through the storm of sorrow when the universe lets up on the storm and we get a reprise in our sorrow, there is a RAINBOW. They do not "undo" or erase the storm they just make the enduring the storm a little more hopeful. Chris~ Mommy to ^Lucy^ & Danger

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

MIA AGAIN... CATCHING UP

WOW.. I knew I hadn't posted in awhile but didn't realize that it had been over 2 months. Guess I def have some catching up to do. I was rereading my last post at the beginning of April and how at the end I said I hoped that month was our month. Well it turns out it was. I know many of you already know but yes we are pregnant and due January 2010 although more than likely we will have our little one in December sometime. April was a happy and stressful month all at the same time. On the 24th I was unexpectedly laid off from work with no promise of a return. I was scheduled for AF the next day or two. I remember thinking on one hand I hope we aren't pregnant b/c that brings up so many issues with not working, need insurance etc. But on the other hand I kept thinking that if we aren't we would be waiting to TTC once again for who knows how long and that was really hard to deal with.

I waited till Sunday to test, I thought I saw a faint line but then talked myself out of it. Tuesday rolled around and still no AF, so I took another test and this time there was a definite second line. I pulled out the first test and the pink line was definitely darker on the 2nd test. I was excited and scared at the same time. I knew DH and myself would be stressing about not only the pregnancy but insurance and everything else. We both were mostly just in shock at first and holding our breath to see if this one would "stick" so to speak. I saw my regular OB and he scheduled an ultrasound to check for viability and a heartbeat. I had that on May 22, at 7 wks 6 days. Our bean was on there moving around and more importantly a good strong heartbeat. I was so relieved. After the ultrasound we started to tell family and some friends. Then on June 9th I finally met with the high risk Dr's (I had a consult w/ them back in Oct.) They had me start on injections of Lovenox 2x a day right away. I was also very happy and impressed b/c before I could even ask "What the plan this time?" he lined it out, especially the big weeks and what type of testing and so forth we will have this time. I told him emotionally I cant make it to 40 wks and he said the furthest he would ever let me go is 39, I said that's still too much, how about 36/37 wks. He said earliest he would like to do anything is 37. Do an amino to check the lungs and then be induced or c-sec. At this point I am thinking c-sec just b/c it takes more things out of the equation for problems such as when in labor. But I also feel very confident in the 3 Dr's I will see and that they will do what is best for me and our baby. I am still so scared but for now I will take it a day at a time and rely on the Dr's.

So I knew that I was going to have to do these self injections 2x a day during this pregnancy and was really nervous b/c I HATE NEEDLES!! The first one I shook, cried and think I even closed my eyes when I put the needle in. LOL But I did it and 6 days later its getting easier and easier. Its just a part of my day now. 8am & 8pm- numb w/ ice, inject and more ice b/c the medicine BURNS... I know it is for a good reason and that makes it easier too. I am 11wks and 3 days today. I will have an ultrasound in 1 week to check for chromosome abnormalities ect. Cant wait to see out little one again...

When I found out we were expecting again I debated on whether I should start a separate blog but I ultimately have decided that I will continue to post on this one about this rainbow baby as well. Emma, Logan and this LO are all intertwined and one wouldn't exist without the other so to speak. So this blog will be a place to share all my feelings whether it be this new LO, or my babies that aren't with me...

8 comments:

Ya Chun said...

Well, that's all good news! Yay!

Are you looking for a job? Maybe you can do something parttime or from home, bring in a bit of money but have more time to take care of yourself and the baby. I quit my job last year, and have been taking care of myself, and then plan is to stay that way till we have a live baby and that baby starts school. It's meant cost slashing and no current savings deposits, but that's ok!

Monica H said...

Wonderful! I am so happy for you and I look forward to reading how things are going throughout this pregnancy.

Many blessings to you- congrats!

AG said...

Congratulations Amanda! I know you're not "in the clear" yet and this will be an anxiety filled pregnancy - but you're almost out of the first trimester! One down, two to go. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

mrsmuelly said...

Of course, I knew...and I'm still so excited! It's almost the 2nd trimester now :-)

Oh, and I agree with the idea to keep the blogs together. Emma, Logan, and this little one are all intertwined.

Monty said...

Congratulations!

I am praying so hard you get to bring this little one home with you!

Don't stress about insurance/work - it will all work out!

CLC said...

What wonderful news! Take it one day at a time!

Meghan said...

Congrats Amanda!!! I remember the Lovenox shots very well, the first one I did I almost passed out! I found icing it really does help - before and after. I was scheduled to have Atti at 39 weeks but my ultrasound at 37 weeks showed he was already big enough so they took him at 38 weeks and he was still 7 pounds one ounce.

I am so happy for you guys.
xxxooo Meghan

Travelwahine said...

YAY!!!!
Congratulations!
It was a nice surprise to come to your blog and hear your good news.

Yes, one day at a time. It sounds like you're in good hands.