I think of the rainbow babes like this... the rainbow after the storm of sorrow. We are suffering through the storm of sorrow when the universe lets up on the storm and we get a reprise in our sorrow, there is a RAINBOW. They do not "undo" or erase the storm they just make the enduring the storm a little more hopeful. Chris~ Mommy to ^Lucy^ & Danger

Monday, August 3, 2009

1 year

Tomorrow is Logan's 1 year anniversary. Hard to believe that last year at this time I was having my last moments with my precious baby boy. I miss him very much but I feel that I am better handling his one year than I did Emma's. Although a big part of that could be the fact that I was also grieving the loss of Logan at the same time and everything was compounded. Or perhaps this new LO in my belly is helping me find some peace as well. Either way though I have had my rough moments over the last month/week and I know I will probably have a moment or two tomorrow as well. I really cant believe that its been a year since we said hello and goodbye to our little boy. MOMMY LOVES YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!

9 comments:

Ya Chun said...

When I popped over to your blog, leaving on a jet plane was playing - one of my favs. It is so melancholy, totally fitting.

I am so sorry that Logan is not where he should be - in your arms. I hope you can openly grieve tomorrow and find some peace, too.

As time has moved on, it hits me sometimes off of special dates, with the dates being more calm. Who understands these things?

((hugs))

Monica H said...

wishing you a peaceful day tomorrow.

Happy Birthday sweet boy!

ezra'smommy said...

Remembering your sweet boy with you, today and always.

Michele said...

From LFCA... Sending warm thoughts as you remember...

Bree said...

Hope you had some peaceful moments that day. I just posted your sweet babies' butterflies on my site. Love to you!

Gypsyhick said...

I'm sending warm thoughts to you and your family on Logan's birthday. ((hugs))

Tristansmommy said...

Logan You are never forgotten, always loved, and never far from a lot of people's hearts!!
Always send mommy peaceful thoughts and lots of angel kisses!!
Happy angel birthday sweet baby boy!!

Bree said...

Hi Amanda,
Just letting you know I moved to butterflybaby15.blogspot.com. :)

Aunt Becky said...

Sending you love, light and peace on sweet baby Logan's day.